It's Me Seeing Me

I just realized this while sitting alone watching "First Wives Club." I heard David say to Ari that he married her because, on their honeymoon, she found out she was pregnant and had to tell him. He told Ari he was scared shitless and the only way he made it was because she told him he could do it.

She asked him why he had married her. He told her she checked all his boxes, but he only married her because she was his cheerleader. Then I realized that I was everyone's cheerleader except my own.

My real estate business is struggling, and I don't know a way out. I don't have a cheerleader; it's just me and the God I pray to. My spirit guides genuinely my savior.

I would never have made it through without learning to pray and listen to my body. I honestly thought I was healed until I learned today that I must learn how to cheer for myself.

I have to be happy for what God has blessed me with. Pull back my energy and pour it into me. I have a real estate business. I read tarot. I am an ordained minister, but the only job that pays me is my new furniture store job, so I guess I am a furniture salesperson.

That's my new career. I am happy when I make money 😁 My heart is hurting significantly because I want love from another. I will no longer seek love outside of me. I don't need a cheerleader because I am on my sideline. I have to pour my cup and prepare my own seat at my table.

I realized my real lesson was that I was learning to lean on myself and love myself unconditionally! If you read to this point, thank you. I pray that you find your space or place in life 🙏🏽 ✨️ You deserve it, and trust me, it feels incredible 😎!